Sunday, July 27, 2008

Sigh. (or what is up with Addy)

Sorry I've been such a bad blogger and even worse blog reader and commenter. I can't really point to anything and say that I've been too busy to blog, but I was definitely in a serious funk last week. From the middle of the week until yesterday afternoon (when I seem to have finally snapped out of it), I was feeling really depressed and kind of hopeless. I was reluctant to blog about it, because I am not fishing for sympathy- I really blame it all on PMS to be honest!  Even so, I just felt awful for a day or two and just wanted to get in bed and cry. This is all so unlike me, I can't even tell you! Having a sick, pit-in-my-stomach, deep sadness- it was truly awful. I don't think I have been doing myself any favors, either. I'm not eating too well (for me, anyway), I haven't been exercising (other than lots of cleaning and yard work). I should really get myself in gear and just stop it- after all, my 20-year reunion is in November and I could certainly stand to lose (more than just) a few pounds. 

Aside from the funk, I do have lots of work going on. I leave in 8 days for a BIG conference. Luckily, my poster is almost finished and I will take it for printing tomorrow. Before I leave, I also need to work on a proposal, tie up some other loose ends, and if I'm really good- get some things together for - dare I say it???- the semester. I can't say I'll be glad for the semester to start, but I actually think it will be good for me to have more structure to my days and more things to distract me from gut-wrenching things for a while. I should be happy, right? It will be my first semester as a tenured faculty member. I guess you regular readers know what is really at the root of my anguish, but I just can't blog about it any more. Ugh. Don't worry- we'll be on vacation in a couple of weeks, so I will have scenic pictures to share.

Sorry to everyone for not keeping up with YOUR blogs!

P.S. I started playing PackRat again, so if you're on Facebook- join in!!

8 comments:

Amelie said...

I'm sorry, Addy. Hope you feel better soon. Maybe the vacation helps?

Super Babe said...

Well... we all need an attitude adjustment from time to time. Hopefully yours will come while you're on vacation :)

Seeking Solace said...

I think many of us, myself included, have been in a bit of a funk this summer. Glad to hear that you are coming around.

Hmm..maybe a back to fitness challenge for August Active Academic?

Geeka said...

oooo, packrat...

I'd love to play.

Addy N. said...

Thanks everyone- I'll be OK! Geeka- if you email me and tell me your secret identity, I can find you on facebook (or vice versa)...

Mel said...

glad you're starting to feel a bit better -- getting ready for the trip should help I hope...

Eddie said...

I'm sorry to read that you've been feeling this way! I hope you're doing much better now. :-)

MommyProf said...

I hope you feel better soon!