I have to take D to a Brownie meeting later- it was just two weeks ago that I told the other moms that I was pregnant, but having problems. I know at least a few know that I miscarried, but some of them won't, so I'll have to share the news. Tomorrow is a LONG teaching day (with my afternoon labs), but the end is near- only two more weeks! I've been working on my LAST lecture for the freshmen class and I will be done with class prep, since my other class is all presentations the next two weeks. I can't wait until it's over!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
So Juno is out on DVD and I had added it to my Netflix queue a while back. It came on Friday (because I hadn't checked to see what was waiting in my queue before returning some other movies) and I don't even think I can watch it now. They also had posters for it all over the mall on Thursday- it was just too depressing. And I shouldn't really harbor any negative feelings about unplanned pregnancies- D was one (a VERY unplanned one, in fact). I just find it so ironic that I got pregnant with her without even trying (in fact, trying pretty hard NOT to), had no problems with the pregnancy and she was born healthy as can be. This time, we decided to have another baby- didn't have to try too long, but then it didn't work out. I know I'm lucky, because there are so many women who are unable to conceive- at all, but life is just odd that way sometimes. I was mentioning to another blogger yesterday, that I feel foolish somehow- like how silly of me to think that I could get pregnant AND carry on a full pregnancy. I also feel like I was asking too much or something, too- to get tenure AND have a baby this year. I know it's ridiculous to think like that, but it's hard for me not to. I'm doing OK today- going on my THIRD consecutive day without crying. I go for my follow-up visit on Tuesday and I just hope they say that everything is fine and I don't need to have anything "done".